Sunday, June 19, 2011

The Best Days with Dad

My Dad wasn't really around when I was growing up. Well, he was pretty much around until I was 10 years old. But during the most critical stage of my growing up years where I was going crazy about my teenage life due to hormonal change... he was abroad working to give us a better future.

I am not really complaining or something like that. It's just that, now that I am a grown up, I just wished that he was there during those times when I needed him the most. I feel that I would have made less mistakes and better choices when he was around to guide me. And maybe, life would be a little easier to comprehend when I have someone on my side even when I was unreasonable and stubborn.

I am an only daughter and given that situation, I am indeed a true-blooded Daddy's girl. He has no choice. LOL. But then, even if things turned out differently between us... those few years that he spent with me when he was not working away from home... where the best days of my life.

When Dad retired from working abroad, he spent few more years before he finally left us for good to a better place. It would have been a great opportunity for us to catch up where we left off but I was already more independent and my needs were different and I can mostly achieve them all by myself. It was then my turn to leave home and work for my own future. 

Every time I came home to visit, I could see in his eyes then that he wished I could stay longer so we could do things together. But I was too busy hanging out with my friends and partying. I never heard him complain though but instead he just stayed on the background and watched me shine.


It's Father's Day and I am celebrating it by looking back and listening to Taylor Swift's song "The Best Day" over and over again. I so love this song. The only thing I hate about it is that it makes me cry every time I listen to it - like right now.

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day with you today
I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today

Today... I miss Dad more than anything else. I just wish that I was able to tell him that. But then, I know deep in my heart... I know he knew that.


1 comment:

♥~Judy~♥ said...

Such a loving tribute to your father, and he does know.

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